I caught up with an old friend whom I haven’t seen in four years. He said: “Michael, to be honest, you confuse me. The Michael I know deep inside is different from the Michael I see on social media today. The Michael I know is soft hearted and gentle.”
And he’s right.
There is a dichotomy between who I am and how I behave. Somewhere along the line, I stopped doing the things I really wanted to do and started doing the things that people expected of me.
I don’t like partying. I’m shy to speak with girls. And I hate small talk. I’ve only methodically LEARNED how to artificially play the role. But that’s not who I am.
My little sister is the most important person in my life. I like teaching taekwondo to orphan children. I like to watch TV and movies but I don’t do it often because I feel lonely. This is who I am.
But instead, I try to portray the image of the guy who has it all. Smart, athletic, suave. This is all an illusion; in reality, I’ve actually fallen short of all my endeavors.
Thank you John Lee, for reminding me to stay true to myself. And to follow the path that aligns with my real self.