Having broken my right collarbone and dislocated my left shoulder, I was left immobile and forced into solitude with just that inner voice inside my head for the first few days. For some people, when they listen to their inner voice, they become more self-aware and find their calling. Well the voices in my head are really annoying and they ask more questions than give answers.
"Know your life story. Everyone has 3 versions of their life stories:
1. The real story of the facts and how things happened.
2. Your success story where you spin the facts to become the hero who overcomes adversary and emerges in triumph — this is the story we tell others when we meet them, this is the mask we wear around to show off.
3. The truth as to why things didn’t work out the way you wanted it to. The story of your weaknesses and failures that you hid behind well-designed excuses. The narrative you don’t tell others but it’s the story you know to be true deep inside your heart. The reason you missed out on your dream job — it’s not the economy, it’s you. The reason your relationship ended — you weren’t good enough. These are your insecurities, your doubts, your incompetence. This is the failure inside you that you try to hide and subdue, but you need to be aware of it and embrace it. Not hide from it.”
- Robert S. Kaplan, Harvard Business School Professor, Vice Chairman of Goldman Sachs
There is a saying “speed is important, but only if you are going the right direction.” I’ve always been focusing on speed, I never questioned my direction.
On paper, everything is great. I have the “good life” that everyone (including my younger self) wants. Money, prestige, girls, what else could a guy want in his early 20’s? I should just count my blessings. Everyone tells me how lucky I am, so I should stop complaining and find a way to love it too right?
Despite my superficial achievements, something is missing. I thought with more achievement, I’d get more answers, but despite how much I climb the totem pole (not that high up), I am not any clearer in my resolve. So what DOES give answers?
The highest achievers are the ones who are the most self-aware, and right now, I have more questions than I have answers, but maybe at least I’m starting to ask the right questions.
I wonder if anyone truly has it figured out. If you do, let me know, I’d be very interested :)